Im afraid just afraid..
noone understands me.. never will
its hard to explain..

could only say..
theres already a pain instilled within me
i dont want the same thing to happen to me once again
i might be just thinking too much
but..
say me selfish..
i cannot take another blow

being selfish to others leads to being good to urself..
but why i chose the other way?
being selfish to myself.. and let others enjoy & happy..

dont ask me.. just want people ard me to be happy..
i may be smiling all day long..
but seriously am i happy?
i ask myself .. i dont know..
maybe i think pulling a long face looks scary?
i dont wana look scary...

maybe i see a satisfaction out of people's happiness..
and realize that i can never be really happy..
by realizing i cannot be really happy..
i try to make people around me happy..
is it that hard to achieve true happiness?

i hate work im stressed..
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i've been very depressed recently..
hanging on real tight with all my strength